I Might Not Have Made It…

It could have been very different. I may not have made it this far. The pull of addiction beckoned but even in the depths of my confusion, despair, and darkness I knew deep down it was not for me – not this time anyway… I didn’t have the understanding or later the words to express it but there was something keeping me going.

Beneath my wounding, conditioning and unhelpful habits resides a part of me with great wisdom, my Wise Woman. Untarnished by the ups and downs of life she is a quiet, calm, knowing guide. When I listen to her things go well. I had forgotten this part of me existed but every now and again she would try and make herself known. For decades my mind overrode her. She didn’t give up.

I found her through my yoga practice, walking in nature, in the pauses between thinking, planning, judging, and zoning out. She led me well and here I am sharing with you. Never in a million years did I think this would happen!

You came from nothing into physical form helpless and reliant on others. To navigate life, you developed strategies and behaviours to ensure that you survive, are fed, loved, or shielded from painful feelings and memories. This is when you start of the disconnect from your inner wisdom.

These parts or programmes which are vital to you as a child haven’t been updated. They get in the way of you living life fully as an adult. Next time you get upset or triggered notice your reaction, what age comes to mind? Perhaps you struggle for words or there are no words – possibly linked to preverbal events.

You may have no conscious memory as to why your programmes developed. There may be a transgenerational link. Yet everything is stored within your body. It holds your pain and the answers you are seeking.

“Trauma comes back as a reaction, not a memory”
Bessel Van Der Kokk

Your body is designed to heal and return to homeostasis. Pain, both physical and emotional, signals something is wrong. Life continues to bring you opportunities to process unfinished business. Events may seem unlinked, unfortunate, coincidental or there may be patterns – ongoing issues with romantic relationships, money, self-worth etc. All are opportunities to heal and be authentically you – not a punishment. The body is signalling it is time to change course. It is exhausting holding onto your wounding and story. I know, I tried extremely hard. Each release felt like it created a new me, lighter, brighter, and happier.

If I can do it you can too! 

Yoga in its fullest sense was my way out of these unhelpful repeating events. Every time I came onto my mat I was guided to connect with my body, then my breath and notice – I discovered my Wise Woman. She is my guide. Our relationship continued to deepen as I expanded my practice with healing and development tools. My trust built. I now trust her above everything. It is my joy and honour to guide you, and others, to connect with your inner wisdom.

Here’s how

Start with one step, something that is manageable and celebrate starting. Before you were oblivious. Now you are aware AND have taken a step towards your goal. It takes as long as it takes. There is no set route or technique. You can take the scenic route or go directly, navigating obstacles, getting stuck in dead ends – it doesn’t matter. I have done all and eventually moved on. Sometimes I would charge ahead, think I was complete only to find something else to consider. All the while I feel better, more alive and my relationships are easier. My sense is that this is a life-long practice, and it feels good. This is my life purpose. To find me and live authentically.

I will guide and support you.

What is your next step? Would group or private sessions best help you? 

Email me to get started.

With love and acknowledgement for all you have experienced, your challenges and potential.

Suzan

Looking For A Hero

Something inside was stirring. I knew there was a way, an answer and was determined to find it! I had my regular yoga practice and was teaching too. Things were better, a lot better… but… As soon as something happened with my son, I was consumed with stress, anxiety, and sleeplessness. There was more to be done!!

I wanted someone with a definitive answer or technique that would make everything fall into place. My quest began. Where was my hero, the magic key to make everything ok? Does that sound familiar ?

My exploration took me to healing therapies, numerology, energy work and more. I trained, had sessions, read, and researched relentlessly.

“The answer lies within ourselves. If we can’t find peace and happiness there, it’s not going to come from the outside.”
Tenzin Palmo

The answer was within – I knew this timeless wisdom… yet I continued to look outside. My mind understood but my subconscious and body were playing out old stories and patterns. And so, my quest for a hero with the answer continued.

A dear friend asked me to co-write an introductory guide to healing modalities. We knew a lot from personal experience and researched more. As we drafted our guide, refined and edited it dawned on me that therapeutic modalities are tools to clear a pathway to our inner wisdom – to the answer within.

The healing journey took me to a point where I could see an issue. On the way I refined my awareness and acceptance. New ways of being, thinking and responding to life developed. I was less restricted by my history and conditioningI noticed it was possible to:

  • Remain calm when triggered.
  • Develop curiosity rather than blame or judge
  • Avoid old reactions/habits.
  • Create new strategies/habits

I continue my healing journey, and this is a life-long commitment. I have the answers within.

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I am the hero I was looking for.

I call her my Wise Woman. She is ever present, wise, and strong. It feels as if she has been with me since the dawn of time. I trust her implicitly and make time for her with my yoga, reflection and walks in nature.

With her at my side I can maintain healthy boundaries, be compassionate and supportive while prioritising my well-being.

Are you ready to find the answers within ? I will guide and accompany you as you find your inner hero. Email me to get started.

With love and acknowledgement for all you have experienced, your challenges and potential.
Suzan

Yoga as a Healing Tool

Yoga can help!

Yes, it can help with pretty much anything.

The answers, insight, and meaning lie within you. There is a part that is beyond the tarnishing and challenges of human life. Soul, higher self, eternal flame, infinity spark, are some of the names. You may know another.

 

When you dedicate your practice – postures, breathing, sound, reflection, ritual, meditation – to yourself you have an opportunity to connect with this part of you, your essence. Allow plenty of time, bring openness, curiosity and non-judgement. Set no agenda or time limit.

Day after day, week after week you deepen your relationship with your SELF. It is the light of your lighthouse, guiding you towards and/or away as needed.

This new found or deepened awareness if the first step and key to the wisdom that lies within. It is unchanging, ever present and the one thing you can trust. First the clutter must be cleared to avoid confusion and patterns and ego conditioning over-riding that quiet voice.

This is a simple process, not necessarily easy. You may confront feelings, memories etc that you have been avoiding.

  • Make sure you are safe before you explore anything that may re-traumatise you.
  • Consider whether you would benefit from the support of a therapist/teacher.
  • Take small accessible steps.

Yoga can empower your healing, recovery and discovery of the root of physical and emotional challenges.

Yoga is all about YOU. It supports you to make peace with your SELF.

To untangle unhealthy relationships. And allow your loved ones to live their own life. Irrespective of our beliefs.

Step One – Self-awareness

Step Two – Self-acceptance

Self-worth and self-love are the fruits.

I am happy to support, guide and empower you on this journey. Please email me to arrange a confidential 20 minute consultation.

Recovery Yoga – online

Feel comfortable being you, in the world at this time with gentle recovery and trauma sensitive practices.

Make peace with your story and create the life you want to live.

New live, online, in-person group starting January 2021.

Recovery yoga, online classesSessions include:

  • Mindful movement with Individual adaptations and alternatives as needed
  • Breathing techniques
  • Relaxation
  • Mindful meditation
  • Sharing, connection and community
  • Home practice ideas

Yoga supports:

  • Positive change
  • Immune system, digestion and rational thinking
  • Well-being of body, mind and spirit
  • Self-awareness and understanding
  • Energy balancing
  • New ways of seeing and being in the world

I feel amazing, I could do anything now!

It’s doing what your body wants and needs rather than what you think you need.

I felt down all day, now I feel great and ready for my walk.

Your confidentiality is assured.

For dates and times click here.

 

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3 Unexpected Bonuses from 2020

I was driving to meet a friend on Christmas morning. The sky was blue and it was sunny. I was filled with joy and awe at the potential and possibilities of life. No it wasn’t a love interest! A good friend of many years. 🙂

There has been an overwhelming energy of fear, especially fear of death this year. In the West it is something that is rarely discussed. In the East death is a part of daily life for many. Nevertheless it is always tragic when someone is seriously ill or dies before their time. If you have been impacted I offer my deepest condolences.

The yogic view is one of re-birth or reincarnation. We have an infinity spark. Nature’s process is birth, flowering, reproduction, decay, death and  decomposition to become the building blocks for new life. This world is one of polarities – birth and death are inextricably linked. There has to be a release, ending or death for a new beginning.
stress trauma recovery sensitive informed yoga sound healing therapy reiki addict addiction parents2020 has seen the end/death of many plans, jobs, business’ as well as the health issues. This has a devastating impact. Suicide, depression, addiction and mental health issues have increased dramatically. Yet within the darkness there have been unexpected bonuses and possibilities. This is what I felt on Christmas morning as I was driving in the sunshine.

I had a strong feeling of triumph over adversity and a deep understanding how survivors of atrocities view it as a blessing. At the time it is extremely difficult/painful, yet ultimately it is a gift. I also realised that I can connect with everyone without being in the same room, even without internet or phone. I felt so deeply connected to you my friends, family and colleagues. I wasn’t practicing a technique or anything magical. It is an innate quality in us all. When I arrived I was bouncy and bubbly and so joyful to be alive NOW, in spite of and because of everything.

Here are my list 3 bonuses from 2020

1. Creativity and innovation – so many inspiring ideas, takeaway afternoon tea/dinner, online Biodanza which can NEVER be taught online.
2. Clarity – unexpected focus on our priorities and what is not important or not working.
3. Connection – with neighbours, local community, friends who are alone/vulnerable who perhaps we wouldn’t have met or called so often.

What do you think? are yours different? Feel free to drop me an email.

2021 from one perspective is starting with uncertainty, growing confusion and questioning of what is happening globally. The yoga and spiritual view is that we are entering the golden age/age of Aquarius. As with all birth there is labour! As in nature the old must fall away to allow the new to come into life. There is much hope and potential.

Your role is to make peace and move through any challenges life brings. You do this by being present and grounded, refining our awareness, accepting what was and what is, this enables any heavy energies to flow through you. The good news is this is easier now than ever before. Your energy vibration raises and the higher it is, the easier your transition to the new age. What changes will you be making, or taking steps towards? what is your dream and how can you manifest it? And how can I best support you?

I continue to offer yoga and development classes to support you with your process. Classes are stress, trauma and recovery sensitive.

Monday 6-7.15 PM Mindful Yoga THERAPY & Relaxation
Monday 7.45-9.00 PM Mindful Yoga & Relaxation
Tuesday 10.30-11.30 AM Chair Yoga
Tuesday 8.00-9.00 PM Spiritual Connections – Sharing & Support Group
Wednesday 6.00-7.30 Recovery Yoga
Wednesday 8-9 PM Yoga Beyond Postures – A healing/development group
Saturday 2-4pm Finding Freedom holistic development group for parents of addicts

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If you have any questions, support requests, topics for newsletters and/or want to say hi, drop me an email.

With love
Suzan

From Suffering to Bliss – a yoga journey for self-healing

When I notice I am suffering or struggling, I check in to see what is happening, what I am not getting or what wants to change.

How are you with change and uncertainly?

For many years I resisted and resented undesired change. It was painful and not something I had planned. I did all I could to avoid it! I would get busy, grumpy, or resentful. So many more important things to do!  Or times there were long periods in inertia, resentment and feeling trapped. All completely subconscious.

Finding yoga and spiritual development gave me the tools to reflect and broaden my understanding. I came to understand that there was something bigger at play. My ego is not in control. The pain drove me to change. The result exactly what I needed.  The pain led to change. I was being guided to a better place.

The act of regularly showing up on the mat is a huge opportunity to be present with what is, to feel those things that are so easy to avoid. I found yoga postures a way into reflective practices. They also gave me time to get to know my body, and feel! Some tightness wouldn’t shift no matter how many classes I did. It was in healing and personal development that they moved. I was then able to explore and access deeper wisdom in the yoga classes.

I studied a whole lot and understood at a cognitive level. Over time I was really able to understand. This was when I felt the knowing and understanding physically and at a more subtle, energetic level.

Now I feel and know with my physical body and beyond that change and the suffering it often brings are the one certainty in life! It is not wrong or a punishment, rather a catalyst to take us to a new, more evolved place. The idea is to move through the suffering rather than get stuck. Now it’s not easy or quick but the reality of life.

Life continues to bring me opportunities to leap forward and I find the support and connection of my practice means the process is easier and quicker. And I still notice sub-conscious activities taking me the scenic route! Ultimately it will take as long as is needed.

Yoga for change and reducing suffering

Are you ready for change? Looking for support navigating change? Trying to understand and make sense of uncertainty.

Email me to book a free 20 minute consultation to see how working together can support you.

The most effective YOGA pose for fatigue, stress & reducing pain

When I am in the midst of admin or had a long day I so need to do this pose and want to share with you. I find a few minutes a day is life changing ! What are the triggers or times when you really need a quick pick me up? This one pose can:

  • Energy levels increase
  • Calmness develops
  • Digestion improves
  • Immune system is supported
  • Clarity and decision making become easier
  • Pain is often reduced or eliminated
  • Relaxation replaces tensions throughout the body
  • Breath settles supporting all body systems
  • Creates a sense of well-being

Drum roll…. Ta dah! The most effective YOGA pose for fatigue, stress & reducing pain is a modified savasana – semi supine – lying with knees bent and feet on the floor!

The most effective YOGA pose for fatigue, stress & reducing pain - semi-supine savasana - calm - relax - flexibility - core strengthTips:

  • If you are not comfortable getting up/down from the floor, practice on your bed or in a chair.
  • If it is more comfortable lie on your side and experiment with a cushion between your knees – in 2nd or 3rd trimester of pregnancy lie on left side.
  • Place a small book or cushion under your head to lengthen the back of the neck. You want the ear to be parallel to the floor.

Frequency:

Regular practice results gives fastest results. Your body will associate this pose with all the positive benefits.

  • Start with 3-5 minutes once a day
  • Build to 5 minutes twice a day
  • Longer if experiencing fatigue, anxiety, aches and pains, try 20 minutes 2 or 3 times daily.

What to do/think about:

  • Stay present and awake if possible
  • Notice – without judgement
  • What sensations are in your body?
  • How is your breath?
  • Where does your mind want to go?

The practice will be just as it is meant to be:

  • You may notice nothing or many things
  • There may be resistance
  • You may want to zone out or sleep
  • Keep returning to the ‘now’ your body on the mat

The more you return to the present moment the deeper the practice. It’s about being real with whatever shows up. I would love to hear how you get on please contact me.

 

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Creating your own sanctuary

Whatever your home situation you can create an area dedicated to reflection and rest. For quiet time away from the turmoil and unpredictability of life.

If you struggle to detach from life and take time out having a special place or Sanctuary will help. You can create a space to support you to relax, meditate, reflex, and be with yourself. Have you tried sitting in the kitchen with all the comings and goings of the family or in the living room with the TV playing? There are times and places in your home where there are many obstacles to being still and others that help the process, aiding you to settle and be open to insights and inspiration. 

You may need you to get creative, but it is possible to create a harmonious space to connect with yourself, your calm centre and intuition. Be realistic, how much space do you have? For most of us a dedicated room is not realistic but if you have one great. If not how about a temporary space where you can place a chair, mat or blanket when you use it.?

If you are living in a busy household, choose times to visit your sanctuary when you are least likely to be disturbed. Negotiate quiet time with others or consider headphones with white noise.

Make an intention for this space to be your sanctuary – when you set it up and every time go there. The energy will build and you will associate it with positive qualities.

Choose an object to evoke a the quality of sacred, whatever that means for you – a photo of a deity, or teacher – a crystal -something from nature – anything of special significance. These may need to be portable and put in place every time you use the space or you may have a shelf, window ledge, a small table etc.

I have something to represent the elements, water, fire/candle, air/feather and earth/crystal. You may like to focus on the senses and play gentle music, use aromas, a soft cushion. Be guided by what you have and your intuition.

I would love to see a picture of your sanctuary, please post it on my Facebook page or email me.

Yoga Healing Aylesbury

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5 Ways to help you stay calm, sane and connected!

1. Routine
Create a daily routine, plan times to start and finish activities. This will give you some predictability, control/power and help keep you grounded in the present rather than with thoughts of what might, should, or should not happen. New habits can take a while to become established and you may benefit from the support of a friend to help create your time table and keep you on track, celebrate success, and support you through any challenges.

2. Connection
Connection is especially important if you live alone. Plan time every day to speak with a colleague, friend, family member or support group. Online communication with visual as well as audio gives a deeper connection than phoning, Facetime, Whatsapp, Skype, Zoom etc are all free and pretty good. I have been having a monthly online lunch date with a friend for a couple of years and it’s great! Join me at one of the tea break or tea & chat sessions (see above).

3. Nature
Where possible spend some time daily in nature. Walking barefoot is a my favourite. If you can’t get out at all or as often as you would like, bring nature into your home with flowers, plants, perhaps try sprouting, planting a container or window box. Open windows and doors to clear the air regularly.

4. Exercise and diet
Exercise regularly, daily if possible, anything to move your body, feel the strength you have. Walk, dance or your guessed it do some yoga :). My Yoga classes are now online and the new term starts 20th April. If you would like to book and/or to receive a short yoga practice to do on your own email me.

Eat nutritious food, as fresh and unprocessed as possible. Treats are fine, too much sugar and starchy foods may feel good initially but are followed by an energy dip and put extra strain on the body to process and digest, so be as moderate as you can. If you deviate from the plan be kind to yourself and get back on track as soon as you can.

5. Create a Sanctuary
You may need you to get creative, but it is possible to create a harmonious space to connect with yourself, your calm centre and intuition. Be realistic, how much space do you have? For most of us a dedicated room is not realistic but if you have one great. If not how about a temporary space where you can place a chair, mat or blanket when you use it.?

If you are living in a busy household, choose times to visit your sanctuary when you are least likely to be disturbed. Negotiate quiet time with others or consider headphones with white noise.

Make an intention for this space to be your sanctuary – when you set it up and every time go there. The energy will build and you will associate it with positive qualities.

Choose an object to evoke a the quality of sacred, whatever that means for you – a photo of a deity, or teacher – a crystal -something from nature – anything of special significance. These may need to be portable and put in place every time you use the space or you may have a shelf, window ledge, a small table etc.

I have something to represent the elements, water, fire/candle, air/feather and earth/crystal. You may like to focus on the senses and play gentle music, use aromas, a soft cushion. Be guided by what you have and your intuition.

I would love to see a picture of your sanctuary, please post it on my Facebook page or email me.

Yoga Healing Aylesbury

Yoga – a Path to Peace & Self-awareness

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Yoga is a path to self-discovery, the ancient wisdom of sages including Patanjali are as relevant today as thousands of years ago. Yoga offers a wealth of philosophy and psychology which dates back thousands of years. Postures as we know them today are a very recent addition. Yoga was taught individually, to men only. It was a way of life. The student would have to work hard to be accepted by his teacher. Training would involve living with the teacher, often for many years.

Krishnamacharya started teaching yoga to women. In 1937 Indra Devi became known as “The First Lady of Yoga.” when she was admitted into his school. Now yoga is often associated with complex acrobatic postures, often with young, very bendy and attractive women. However the postures are only one of many tools to journey to a state of yoga. They can in fact become a distraction when that is our only focus. It is important to maintain strength in the body, especially the spine and a flexibility. From a yoga perspective this is to support our meditation practice.

A mindful yoga practice supports the body and creates a space to become aware of what really going on. Underneath the busy mind, and aches and pains there is often an emotional issue. Awareness can be enough to start or complete moving this energy from your system.

Y – YOU – the only person who you can change is yourself – you are responsible only for your reaction.

O – OBSERVE – your thoughts, actions, and reactions – are there patterns you have outgrown or are not serving you? Are you ready for change?

G – GRATITUDE – spend time focusing on all you are grateful for, the more you do this the more you will find and the more positive and calm you will feel.

A – ACCEPTANCE – allow whatever is happening to be okay and remember that change is the only certainty. Much angst and energy is spent on things over which we have not control.

Is it time for you to take the next step? Please email me if you would like support or guidance.